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the daily taryn
a not so daily writing project about everything and maybe also nothing
february 11th, 2020
I had big plans for my writing tonight. I was gonna come home, work out, eat dinner, shower, get in bed and spend the rest of my night writing something special. Something unforgettable. Something that would make you (yes, you) go, "wow, that girl can write."
What about, you ask? No clue. Hadn't thought about it — my brain doesn't work like that. I don't think through what I'll write about. I sit down and let the fingers go. That's what she said. lol.
I did the first few things — work out, eat dinner, shower — but I'm not in bed and I'm not writing something spectacular. My plans took a turn because I realized that I really, really don't want to regret any of my time in San Francisco. Seems like a big disconnected thought, but it's not. As I was getting ready to get in bed, I remembered that one of my very best friends lives a block away from me. How crazy is that? How do I ever take that for granted? In 10 or 5 or 2 years, this will not be the case. It will not be this easy to see someone I love at the drop of a hat. It'd be a true waste to not invite him over. He said yes (because who doesn't drop everything to hang with me — duh), and now he's sat on the couch next to me, Anthony, and Lex and we're all watching an HBO documentary about the McDonald's Monopoly fraud.
Writing is weird. You can't see that I just stopped typing for ~20 seconds to look at my friends. To listen to them laugh and watch Lex work and see Sean take a sip of wine. To watch Anth make a stupid joke that Sean somehow thought was funny. Writing doesn't show that. That I'm coming back to write words that I wouldn't have written had I not had those 20 seconds.
I'll miss this someday. When I'm married with kids and a dog or two. A lot more wrinkles and a lot more memories. I'll miss the days when I was 29, sat on the couch with my friends, half-watching a documentary as an excuse to get cozy with each other on a Tuesday.
I'm glad I didn't write a big long thing. I'm gonna get back to my friends.
Oh, and if you're really itching to read something, I went through a bunch of old things I wrote and found a bunch my site didn't have. Enjoy these 7 new ones I posted tonight.
Talk soon? Cool. Reply if you'd like — I read everything.
Your friend,
Taryn
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