the little place where only you are

the daily taryn — mar 10, 2022

Top of the morning my lovely little people. I just found a journal entry from a year ago, almost to the day. I wrote a thing, liked it, showed Cam, then wrote again about her reaction. So there’s two parts to this, but I’m going to show you them in reverse.

Also, I’m just copy and pasting from my journal (I use Day One), so enjoy any misspellings and distaste for proper capitalization.

part 1: a little chat with cam

i just turned to cam and said, "i had the funniest little thought." 

her: “oh ya?”

me: “ya, here i just wrote it out.”

she read it and i get nervous as i always do, but shockingly not as nervous as i'd imagine i would, realizing that my dream person is laying next to me in bed, reading unedited words i just put down my book to write. 

she said she loved it -- "it's also so overwhelming to think about" 

me: "it shouldn't be tho. its it, you know"

her: "yeah, it's all you've got." 

"maybe if i ever wrote something, i'd start it off with that." 

"aw you should! i can't wait to read what you write." 

part 2: the thing

It's so crazy that everyone has a moment when they realize it's just them. there's a little brain inside your head and your body and your relationship and your life and your family and job and all the things. there's a you. and so many things in our day take us away from that you. so much so, that when we come back to us - to ourselves - it's overwhelming. it feels like getting coffee with a stranger. 

"hi. how have you been?" 

it'd be nice to not feel spooked inside yourself, wouldn't it? 

that's why i write. it's a moment for me to sit down with me at a janky ol diner over a warm cup of coffee and go, "wow, okay. hi. how are we feeling? let's check in." 

i think that's why i love writing for others. it's personal but it's also communal. my little me is hanging with your little you. 

like, right now, i'm fully aware that you and i are sat here sharing this moment. we're at the diner. we're connecting. 

how's your coffee? i hope it's warm. 

talk soon.

your friend,

taryn